Fatal Attraction

I died last night...

You killed me..

I gave up fighting and submitted

Finding solace in knowing I didn't have to try anymore,

no longer having to find excuses to explain why you are the way you are.

I surrendered

Your hold on me was suffocating,

your clench on my perspective, my dignity, my soul got stronger

and I felt each breath become more difficult than the next.

The day I met you I lost an ongoing battle with my conscience,

knowing you were the living, breathing contradiction of everything I stood for.

I looked into your eyes,

one last time

as beautiful as the day I met you.

I hate that even in this moment, I still love you.

My blood was on your hands,

you killed me, and I let you...

Tie-Dye Crash Course. . .

I'm loving the idea of Tie-Dying stuff lately..

Nothing OTT...

Not in a hippy 70's flower child way, more like a one off piece with a black blazer kind of way.

Anyway, here are some steps I got off wikiHow

Little tip: Wear gloves!

Steps

1. Get some type of bottle to dispense the dye. A good idea would be to use something like a mustard or ketchup bottle like you would find in some restaurants. You want something just like that, but maybe a little smaller.



2. Get a white T-shirt and wet it. Wring it out pretty good, so it is damp. Lay it out on a flat surface. Put your finger in an area around the middle. That will be the center of your spiral.



3. Leaving your finger in the middle of the shirt, begin to wind the shirt around your finger, making sure the shirt stays relatively flat. Continue to do that until you get it all wound up. It should be about as tall as a doorknob, and the diameter relatively close to that of a saucer.



4. Put three to four rubber bands around it. You should space them out relatively evenly, so it sort of looks like a pie.



5. Fill up your sink with just enough water so that the shirt can be fully submerged. Pour a good bit of soda ash into the water. Not a ton, but a decent amount. Mix it in with the water fairly well. Let the shirt soak in that for about 20-25 minutes. When the 20 minutes are up, wring the shirt out fairly well. Do not rinse.



6. When you put the colors in, you want add enough so you don't see white. You don't want to put so much in that there are little puddles lying around on the shirt. Make sure you get into all the little folds of the shirt. For each section (the little things that look like slices of pie), alternate colors. You could also mix colors, like blue and yellow.



7. Get some plastic wrap or something and cover your shirt for 24 hours.



8. After 24 hours, run water over the shirt until the water dripping out is fairly clear. Then you can cut the rubber bands off to see what it looks like.



9. Directly after rinsing, throw just the shirt into the washer with warm water. Use liquid soap. After the wash, just throw it into the dryer for about 20 minutes.

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Almost Bitten!

Last Friday Afternoon.. the slowest day of the week

I found out semi-last minute that Kellan Lutz and Edi Gathegi (two vampire hotties from Twilight), touched down in Sydney to do a one hour signing at The Strand Arcade's JB Hi Fi.

Of course being the obsessed fan I am practically ran down there after work, being one of the few 20-somethings there I managed to push past a few of the 12 year olds to secure a spot near the front of the line.

After waiting in the line for ages, some teenage, pimple faced, manager wanna be employee told myself, as well as the million screaming twi-fans behind me that their store was at full capacity and weren't taking anybody else in..

..FULL CAPACITY..

Was he effing kidding me?

Did he realise who I was? . . . How many times I've seen Twilight?

After ruling out every other possible option, like kicking the kid that worked there, sneaking through the back door, or flirting with security..

I decided to cut my losses and call it a day..

(Next time the cast is in town, I'm camping out)

Surry Hills Festival 09 -

Saturday morning, my friend and I found ourselves having a relaxed, cruisy day out at Prince Alfred Park for a day of music, food and shopping..

As far as free festivals go, this one was pretty good, we got to sit on the grass, listen to local bands and went crazy over the gypsy coffee and Spanish paella (yum)!

I'm pretty sure I met my future husband as my girl W and I stumbled across him while feebly attempting to light a cigarette in the wind...

Even though he didn't seem to speak a word of English, and had a male walking suspiciously close to him, you could tell he was totally imagining our future babies!

I had to stop myself from doing too much retail damage. It's scary to think that our small market stall owners have now evolved into a bunch of savvy, credit card accepting business moguls.. so dangerous! (but I love it)

All in all, I'm happy i dragged my tired butt out of bed for this...

x

-please excuse the belated (and brief) review-

The perfect crime . . .

At 2:37pm Monday afternoon Kristina x was arrested for Murder..

Driven to insanity by an incompetent co-worker, who's voice is said to be like a diamond saw that could cut through metal, many say it was inevitable.

"It was bound to happen sooner or later, if Kristina x didn't do it, I would have." said the Director of the company, "I may just give her a raise after this, she has definitely shown initiative".

It is reported that Kristina x resourcefully gathered together two paper clips,a UHU stick and some tape, to secure the small annoyance to an ergonomic swivel chair, before launching her out of the window crashing half way down Elizabeth St, followed shortly after by her phone.

Witnesses describe the incident as nothing short of heroic. Kristina x has restored order to society, and for this we expect she will receive a mere slap on the wrist.

"Pretending to understand everything, yet in reality not knowing their own minds" - Ulysses by James Joyce

. . .I've been absent. . .

Thinking I guess

Seeing things lucidly, I look at you. Seemingly happy with your fraudulent lifestyle and your artificial friends

It's been a while since I've seen you, so much has changed in my life

yet you still seem the same

You paint yourself as the hero as you tell me what you've been up to. . .

your distorted, fictitious, exaggerated version of course

I laugh..

I laugh with relief, because at one stage I was close to being somewhat like you. . .

Let me remind you, as I'm sure it slipped your mind with all the late nights and white substances

- I dont want to know you anymore -

It was a phase, a right of passage which thankfully, I learnt my lesson quickly

that kind of life doesn't interest me.

and so

While your caught up in the past, I'm surpassing the drama

Learning about something real

real problems

real hardships

real hurt

and dealing with them the real way instead of relying on temporary escapes

I was lucky enough to have genuine people picking me up

reminding me of who I really was

I honestly hope the same for you..

Magical Heels

Transform me...

Take me somewhere new this time

Don't just let me twirl in circles on the dance floor

Move me forward

Left work with right, and right with left

One step in front of the other, walk me out of trouble

Make me stand tall

Confident

Feminine

Commanding

Sexy

Don't get stuck and break

I need you.. you hurt me.. but I NEED you

x

Guitar Hero

In an attempt to channel into my inner rock star . . . I am now a guitar enthusiast
Random.. Yes
Inspired by Chanel.. Yes
I hear you all conspiring against me as you read this, thinking to yourself "Kristina x, do you have any musical talent?"
If playing the recorder in year 7 music, or singing drunken Karaoke counts, then yes.. I most certainly do..
Stop looking at me with your judgement eyes and give me some credit for trying..
I'm no Hendrix, but I've got an ear for music, and I totally think the recent mix tape/road trip esq CD I made my friends listen to is testament to that...

Kristina x. . . coming soon , to a campfire near you!